The first post
I don’t know why I’m doing this but here I am.
Sometimes I feel like writing but I never considered myself as a writer so I never even started. In high school, right back from the summer break, my Italian professor decided to start with an essay. Great! My least favourite test in high school. I did it and it went kind of well, at least for me, I took 6+ on a scale from 0 to 10. For me it was a good start! My professor said also “Good, but there is a bit of rust from the summer.” and for me was even better: a 6+ with rust on it? If I can remove even a bit of it I can reach a 7!
A month later we had another essay, different theme but for me they where all the same. I love handwriting but for personal use, a note, some sketches and so on. (I have a small size handwriting and sometimes I didn’t even understood what did I wrote, back in the time.) When it comes to create a story around something you don’t give a crap about or something you actually find it kind of useless or nonsense or you even hate it, well here was where it comes the nightmare for me. (Not that if I have to do it now, it would be better.) By the way, I did it and “Ok, you’ve removed the rust, good job!” my professor said. Great, I reached my desired 7 out of 10! When I saw the grade I was like “Really? are you kidding me?”. I got a 6-. The first grade was pumped up by around 1 point. I said everything about my greatness in writing!
So, why the ____ are you writing??
And more than that, why are you doing it in english??
Well, easy question, easy answer! Cause I want to!
It’s been too much that I’m holding back from writing anything just for the pleasure to do it, so I started. It’s also part of a growth process, letting out of thoughts, confront myself and see it as a part of a journey.
Even if it took more than two months to write this first post I finally really understood why I want to do this. More than the previous written reasons, I want to write something because this will be my journal. I don’t want to be famous but I just want to do this for myself. I’d like to think that I’m talking (or better, writing) to someone ’cause it makes me think that I’m not alone and this has a better impact than just thinking I’m writing my own personal journal. Also because I started it five times and never continued for more than just two day.. I’m bad at it!
Anyway, this will be also a challenge for myself and I hope something that someone can find it useful, but even if I’ll have no reader at all that would be ok for me. So, on the 22nd of May, 2022, let’s get started!
Federico